Well, the first day of school has come and gone. I had done a really good job of blocking the whole thing out of my mind, pushing aside the emotional part of it out of my head until the last possible minute.
We got up yesterday morning, he had his breakfast, brushed his teeth, washed his face, and got dressed. He threw on his backpack and we took off down the street.
I really worried that him getting on the bus would be a problem. I didn’t need to worry about that, he got on without a problem and sat down next to his friend. The bus door closed and off it went.
So this was the last possible minute. At this point, I couldn’t hold it in any longer. I literally sobbed off all my makeup all the way home. I was so happy that he got on the bus without a problem, but watching him through the bus window made my heart break to see my baby without me. He was fine, but I know him well enough to know that he was stressing. He’s an only child that has never been to daycare. He is shy, and often has separation anxiety. The boy was stressing. But he was brave and did wonderful.
I talked to the teacher, and he did have some anxiety through the day and tended to attach himself to the teacher all day long. His behaviour was typical of him, and I wasn’t surprised to hear any of it. Overall, considering how overwhelming it must have felt to him, he did great. Time will help, and the more comfortable he gets with the environment and the people, the better he will do.
We met him at the bus stop and he got off the bus and gave me a big hug. If I hadn’t talked to the teacher, I never would have known that he had any anxiety at all. He proclaimed how much he LOVED school as we made our way home.
This Mommyhood thing sure is an emotional roller coaster. I feel like we’ve just left the gate. Lots more to come. 🙂